Take A Bow..

How about a round of applause,

A standing ovation
Oh, Yeah

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talking' bout'
Girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on

Oh, And the award for
The best liar goes to you
For making me believe
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now

Ok.. I lied.. Ended up I din post.. Whatever... Was sleeping like a pig on saturday... Cold weather=perfect for sleeping.... My sleep more important anyway.....

Ooooouuuucccchhhh!!!! My skin on my thumb tear.... Cant do anything, cant write... Cutting onion just now, totally burnt my hands.....

Yay, Er Daeseang back tomorrow!!! Someone to irritate!!!! Bet he misses me more than I miss him... LOL.. Actually, I forgot... LOL

Virus the Laughing Signing off.....

School...

Im back here... Cant neglect this place....

Finally the week is over... But.......... The BUT...............

Have to go for bio remedial tomorrow morning... 8 o clock... It's like a normal school day.... Going to have to wake up early again.... How much I dread going to school... Been sleeping on the bus for like everyday... Luckily so far haven miss my stop....

So everyday is school... WOOOHOOOOOOOO... Sense of optimism.... Monday to Saturday, Sunday do homework, so it's school everyday... Yay!!!! I realised that I am spending more time in school then ever, more than my sleep.. My precious and beautiful sleep.... Gone.... So not enough.....

My hips and right knee hurts... Should see the mark on my right knee... Shows how much effort I put in during training...... Totally tired from all the training for the whole week... I was in dreamland for quite a long time in school today during lessons...

Shall find time to post tomorrow.. A more detailed one.... To end, I wanted to play a prank on Seh Hian, but I held myself back.... I scared later all the wrong things spill out... Haha...

Bye!!!! Annyeong!!!

Principles...

The world hates me... I hate the world.....

What a difference can a world make??? What difference can I make to the world???

If this was to ever happen to me, I will answer like this....

Girl: How much do you love me??

Me: I love you very very very much....

Girl: If you love me so much, tell the world, shout it out to the world and let them know.

Me (Whispers into her ears): I love you very very much...

Why did I whisper into her ears??? Because she is my whole world....

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So many changes, you expect me to adapt immediately??? I will, but let me come to terms with it first.... Life is filled with changes, a life with no change is a dull, mundane one.... But this drastic change, how do you expect me to accept it??? I dun noe what you are trying to do, but my attitude towards this is changing.....

It's been a long time since i HAVE BEEN REALLY ANGRY, and you probably have that honour of getting it...

Serious???? Most people have probably never seen me like that, unless you know me for more than 2 years.... Violent, rash, hot tempered, you have not seen it all yet.... I have been practicing real self control over my temper.... I noe not of what I can do when I really flare up this time... Seriously, I dun noe.... My control of my actions, I know I have to take responsibility of what I do.....

Joker.. Funny... Cold... Lame.... These covers up everything.... I can be super nice, I am most of the time.... I cant remember the last time I was REALLY angry with anyone..... Treat people how others want you to treat them... That's why I tell jokes, lame, cold, funny, to lighten the atmosphere... I want people to feel happy around me, not forget me, and come to me for happiness etc.... Suaning, I never really mean what I say, I dun go too far, I do just enough to make everyone laugh...

If I got too far with the insults, then there is a problem... All I say was not the truth..... If I did say how I really feel, maybe, just maybe you would get hurt....

Lighthearted.... I try to make people around me to feel really comfortable, to enjoy being around me..... But some dun really appreciate the warmth that I am trying to give.... I want people to forget of their troubles when together with me... Making jokes about your troubles is to show that your problems is not as complicated as you think is.....

If I can’t have what I want, let me want what I have.


Life is too short to be unhappy. Always forgive but never forget. People change and thing go wrong but always remember LIFE GOES ON!!


I live by my principles of life.

My Day And Worth...

Had a great day yesterday... Of course, since it was my day after all... Start with a song...

Woohooo.. Suzy knew it was my birthday coming soon and she sang me for me and to me!!!! Be jealous people.... You dun have it, na na ni pu pu!!!!!

Yesterday was my birthday, but it was just another day.. Apart from the wishes from people I see, everything was rather the same... Lessons as usual... Was more enjoyable than normal.. Probably cause I was more cheerful than usual.... Ya, I am always so happy and full of energy... Some might wonder where I got them from... I should not start ranting on life....

Chem teacher is so interesting, impossible to sleep in class... His methods of teaching is super funny.... Received my physics test results yesterday.... Disappointing but I am satisfied... Though I failed, it was a difficult paper and I knew I did my best... About 3/4 class failed, so yea... And the top few classes also had plenty of failures, which further highlights the difficulty....

Math test on my birthday.... I can only say gg.... Wont pass( passing mrk is 70% btw).... Totally did all wrongly... Like the after exam then say oh ya need do this, crap!! So ya, two retest to go... Plus physics test also... Yippie!!!! I am so happy.... I crave challenges, test my capabilities..... Thats life!!!! Wooo Hooooooooo!!!!!!!!

Geog yesterday was super funny... Have presentation, Er Didi, You Hong and me no information that should have been collected days before.... So the King of Words step up.... I crap the whole thing up, and everyone was like convinced..... Then teacher say it was good though it was 'smoking'.... I am good at thinking on the spot, and good with words too.... If you talk to me face to face you would know.....

Birthday presents!!!!! Received only 1... T.T Nah, should have more coming in I think... Like Derek, Wilson, Seh Hian, You Hong and blabla... Er Didi, I love your present!!!!!!!!!! The contents and what it is shall not be spilled..... I read le I laugh lor... Typical words of you.... Yaya, I will use it well..... Spam all that I know..... And the skateboard nice also, where you buy from??? Come together ah???

Today
Did CIP and just got home only.... Interacted with the sec 1s... Did with my junior in cca so was quite fun... Though in the end, the seniors were mostly the ones who did the stuff.... I feel like a karang guni man now.... My back is hurting from carrying the newspapers..... I want a massage!!!!!!!!!!!!

After that went for lunch.... Want thank Zhi Qi who treated me to it as a birthday gift...... I just realise how much people appreciate me as a friend and more..... Our bonds may not seem strong, but deep inside, we noe we are there for one another... The spirit never dies!!!!

So to sum it up, it was a great week.... Enjoyable one, one that showed me how much I am worth to you people in my heart.... Priceless, is my worth....

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

To show my appreciation, I shall end the post with epicness... Dun drink/eat while watching.... High choking rating!!!

Super funny right??? Hope to remind all of you, that when you are down, can come talk to me..... I will try my best to make you laugh!!! Smilesssssss for your life!!!! Smilesss and more smilessss


Signing off
Happy/Laughing Virus

When Best Isn't Enough....

Life is the sum of all your choices.

A series of trying to make up your mind.

Sometimes we make decisions and start to regret it.... Sometimes things dont go your way and you regret not putting enough effort when you should have.....

Life's too short for regrets...

Since you know you did not do enough, then subsequently you should put in more effort... So as to not fail and to succeed....

We were born to succeed, not to fail.

We are all born for a reason.... Our life, is to find that reason why we are living.... To forever drown in your regrets???? When the same thing happens the next time, you will just do the same and the cycle continues.... Living in regret forever, that's certainly not the way to live life..... For me at least....

Some of you may wonder, how I can be so cheerful and happy almost all the time... Even if I am sarcastic, which is like a norm, somehow, you manage to laugh dun you??? Optimism, that's the key.... Why look at the bad when they is the good??? What's the point of dwelling in what you cant have for the time being??? You cant have it now does not mean you wont have it ever....

One thing I learnt... And I apply to my life...

Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us.

This is true for almost everything... Love something, and it will love you back.... For example, studying... If you love a subject a lot, your interest in it grows, you have that motivation deep inside you to study that subject.... Somehow or rather, you will do well in that subject.... That's loving you back.... Treating something how you will want it to treat you... Hate something, and without a doubt, it will hate you back.... You will never succeed in it....

If A equals success, then the formula is: A = X + Y + Z, where X is work, Y is play, and Z is keep your mouth shut.

Knowing how to control what you say is important... You really wouldnt want trouble to come looking for you because of a stupid comment.... You wouldnt want a conflict to start as a result of a senseless comment you said.... Easier said than done.... It's true, but sometimes, words are more powerful than actions....

I can almost sense the critics coming from this post... Here's the thing.... Whatever I say, you dun agree, then dun listen... No need to criticise.... You cant change a person to who you want him to be.... My thoughts and yours are different.... What you think is not how I think.... Still, dun need to insist on your way.... You want to be right, then you are right....

You may think I am wrong, it's alright to tell me.... But to argue, and showing how right you are instead, look, I can find my own mistakes, Kamsai hamnida....

If you are not ready to accept my opinion, then dont ask me about it... What's the point of me telling you then you just disagree with what I say??? You ask me for my opinion, I tell you, the you dun accept it.... Then ask for what??? If you insist you are right, then I cant say or do anything.... If you think in watever way, I cant stop you.... I have no right, no power and absolutely no obligations....

Whining... Self pity... Or watever else.... I cant stop you, and I will not....

Dun like me talking abt life??? That means you agree with what I say, and refuse to accept it.... You prefer your own principle, then go on... I am not forcing... These are my thoughts, not yours....

Competition soon... I am putting in all my effort, doing my best... I know one thing for sure,I am not the only one that is training, I am not the only one improving.... Dun think for once that I am good, for there will be someone better out there... To be selected, partially was already confirmed, but it doesnt stop there.... Doing your best in training is not enough to be selected....

I put in effort.... I see my fellow competitors and teammates putting effort, I tell myself to work harder than them... Doing your best is NOT enough.... For my best may not compare to others best.... Work hard, and work harder than the rest.... No talent is not an excuse.... Effort, training, shows results.... If you were not selected, dun say you have done your best....

Efforts dont betray, and when it does, it simply means that not enough effort is put in..

Familiar???

Conclusion??? Doing your best is not enough.... Surpass your best, break your own limits.... And I need go do my HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye with LOTS OF LOVES!!!

Catchin up...

Shall start with some videos.. Realised that my blog is getting too wordy...

F.Cuz ( Pronounced as Focus )new song...

SISTAR

I'm still not over them...

Dal Shabet - Super Dupa Diva

New group that just debuted... I think that they are very cute.. This song is also highly addictive.... The beats and everything.... No wonders why I keep listening to them.... New, but with potential....

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Im back!!! Haven been blogging for like 3 days... If you have been waiting for updates or sth, sorry for the wait.... Busy juggling studies together with cca... Hard to find time to blog.... I sllep normally when I have the time.... Tired, very very tired..... How tired I am can be seen from the fact that my past few posts all have words to describe my fatigue.....

It's scary to be stalked.... Especially when you dont even noe that person well.... It happened to me in primary school when a girl supposedly liked me.... But the point is I never saw her before, and din even noe her.... Scary right??? But who cares anyway.... Primary school liking a person and now liking a person is totally different.... Who knew about infatuation when they were 11/12???? (Letting out secrets here....)

Training on thursday and friday drained away my energy totally... No surprise to see me sleeping in between breaks with Er Didi.... We are both very tired... And dun ask STUPID questions like 'what did you do last night huh???', and then the wink and the smile.... I got SELF CONTROL ok???? And I am not so desperate for watever sick things you are probably thinking of when you were asking me that question....

Back to topic on training.... Thursday, I was taken out of extra lessons to go for training... No choice... HOD's orders, have to listen.... Not that I dun want go, just saying how much the school wants to do well this year... So I went at 4 instead of 3 cuz of triple sciences.... Coach say I have great improvement, so I am happy.... Though tired, still have the joy... Reaching my form soon.... Hope I will do better.... Top 4!!!!

Incident happened on thursday when You Hong refused to go training, say he want to go for lessons instead... HOD went to ask him go personally, he sort of insisted he dun wan go.... Dun noe the real story, but in any case, shouldnt have done that.... Though he keep saying he dun wan go competition, deep inside, I know he really wants to, I guess... He lacks confidence, I think.... If he puts in more work than now, I am sure he can do it.... But.....

Friday training for those in competition.... So many people never go.... So nothing much to say about it other the bad news I heard which is most probably true.... After, coach says that attitude is important, and he wont hesitate to slash people off the list for competition... He haven submit it yet...

Yesterday was spent doing homework.... Blur and sotong me forgot to bring geog wb home, now cannot do homework.... Going to be scolded tomorrow for geog..... NO................

Dunnoe whether to continue wushu, or go for floorball, or soccer in JC.... Or maybe go back to being a sprinter??? I am training really hard for my individual event... And with less than a percent chance that I will not be involved in the team events, I have 3 under my belt.... Going to have to work really hard.... Haven miss a single training this year... No excuses, it's my last year... After I step down, I will have to think of next year, what I am going to do....

Track??? The gift of speed that I have???
Floorball??? What I wanted to join in sec 1 but mum dun allow???
Soccer??? What I always wanted to do???
Or stick to what I have been training hard for for the past 4 years???
Suggestions???

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Received my SISTAR album from my neighbour that went to Korea and just got back.... I got a poster of SISTAR!!!! It's like 60cm wide and 40cm long... Super big.... And I am super happy..... Wanted to paste in my room, but have no space... So it's rolled up in a corner....

Recently in support of Orange Caramel.... I especially like Lizzy and Raina.... They are cute and pretty.... To me..... A~ing is nice.... My current playlist includes it....

Heeheee... Jiyeon and Suzy at the start.... Raina and Lizzy!!!!

OK.. Time to go.... For you for now...
안녕 ~~~ 사랑이 많은~~~

Words...

Life is like a blanket too short. You pull it up and your toes rebel, you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder; but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night.

Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once.

Too short.. Life's too short for regrets.... No point thinking about it anymore... It's over.... No point looking back, for I cant change history... I can only look forward, and work towards the future... Rejoice for others, they got one down... Whatever....

I am not them... I am ME.... This is only one, not the others... Let down by one does me I should let down the others....

People change, things go wrong. just remember life goes on

I am a liar if I say I am not affected.... Delusional I should say... Face reality, face myself.... After all, no one has a perfect life... Brick walls, stumbling blocks.... Everyone has them... I get mine first.... But life goes on.... Block or wall, I should not be stopped by them... No, I am not... Wallowing in my self pity, I found more about myself... I found out more about life.....

Wallowing in self pity was not a waste of time.... Discovery of myself, that's priceless... No point crying over spillled milk right??? It's ok to cry over it, but you have to get over it.... Soon and fast... Crying over it for a short period alleviates your sorrow.... But for too long is waste of time...

Nope I din cry... No self reflection also....

If you cant change life, change your attitude towards it

Thats what I did.... Change my perspective.... A person who loves his life, cant be regretting everything he has done.... A person who loves his life, should make full use of every single second of it....

What's done cannot be undone

Is already like this, just accept fate, or destiny.... In a different way, it's the result of your own actions... Facing up to reality, facing my life, is to accept things as they are.... To always encourage people, how can I stumble like this??? Inspiring, that was not the way....

I did wallow in it for a while, but luckily not for too long... The feeling took a long time to sink in, and it still is sinking in... Pretending I dont feel it is self delusional.... Feeling it, accepting it and getting used to it.... This is the first time, but certainly not the last... A long journey ahead....

I cant look back anymore...
Cause what I will be experiencing is right ahead of me...


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Poor results not by me has caused the whole cohort to have so many remedials... Every single day.... Plus training.... Bushed, but not tired.. Ironic....

Every morning, I wake up and tell myself "Today's going to be a wonderful day... Enjoy it, it's going to be great".... Er didi shuo:

To be tired physically is a joy.. To be tired mentally is weak

I am attentive in class... I dont sleep anymore... A whole new person.... I realised that each day is too wonderful, I cant spent it sleeping... It's a waste...

Training has been slack, totally feel my fitness dropped.... Hardly ever pespire cause training last for like 30 minutes each time, due to remedials...

Went home with Kenneth today.. Din stay for cca exhibition.... The reason is I dun noe also.... Talking on the way home, then he said that my talks on how life should be is errr, good??? Humility here.... Totally convincing in a way... Just see above...

Convincing... I am, that's what others say... I can tell a white lie and everyone believes it... Trust or convincing???? Half half.... I dunnoe which I would prefer....

Went jogging with him after we went home and changed... 4 km!!!!! His suggestion... Completed in 24 minutes i think??? Not sure if we less one round of what... After the run, din feel tiered at all.... Surprisingly... Not really tired also....

Talking too much here... If you ever wondered why I dun have photos on my blog, it's cause firstly, I hate camara flashes... I am a dracula.... Secondly, it's cause I think it's easier for me to use words to put things across.... Sorry for this wordy post...

Homework, WO LAI LE!!!!


Annyeong with LOL( Lots of Love)

It's easy to find me, just find the yellow watch>< That's how ppl find me

TT...

TT

Super sad... Words cant describe how I really feel now... Super sad is little compared to how I really feel.... Done my best??? Nope, I dun think so... My hopes and dream is sort of dashed now... LIke completely.... That was nowhere near my best....

Looking around, all get the better results... Those that I was supposed to be better than, were better than me... Grades gotten is put together with what I dun like... Reconsider and rethink.... Why couldn't I??? If others can, why not???

Sympathy or consolation... They dun work....

You only know how it feels when you experience it

Now I know... But you wont... We can never be in someone's shoes... No matter how hard we try.... Experience it then can you feel it...

Cheer up, dun be sad, at least u did well... Those words are not consoling... Nowhere near... Cause you are not me... You wont know how it feels.. Ever... Until you experience it... You got what I want, consoling me does not console me... It justs reminds me, of what I could not get.... So close, yet so far... My fellow peers all did it, but I could not... You know how it feels like??? Reassured ppl can say reassuring words because they are assured.... But their words are to those that did poorer than them.... Consolation??? Absolutely not... Pouring salt into the wound??? Yes...

Some ppl did worst than me... You will think I am insulting them by moaning and whining here... The thing is, what was expected of me, I did not deliver.... Not my high expectations, it's what that is is expected of me.... So not insulting....

I hate people that get A1s and then go about saying luck or watever crap... Or go around saying at least you got a blabla.... Or ask you for your results... Worst, "you got A1 right"??? My dream is gone and you have to go on stepping on them... Rest assured I will not be hoping you will complete my dream, for you stepped on them....

Hypocrites.... Actors.... I seriously dun noe.... Do you really mean how you treat me??? Or just an act??? I can't tell... For your actions to me has yet to prove anything....

Brickwall... I have hit it... But I should not just let it stop me... Find a way to get around it... Whether by the side, from underneath, or by climbing over it... I should not give up that easily.....

Doing my best... That's partially living life to the fullest... I din do my best, or maybe I did, and the results speak for themselves... If I have to start, now is the time... No more slacking... I dun want to end up regretting like now.... I can either dwell in my regrets, and stand back up and show others.... Everywhere I turn, I see what haunts me... You dont know, cause you are not me....

I really dun noe what to do.... It justs keeps coming back... The students mention it... The teachers mention it....

To overcome pain takes time... But I dun have the time... I need a convincing argument, but no one ever can....

TT

Off...

Off to aunt's house for dinner... Drowning in my pile of homework...

Will post new videos... But currently, I have no time for that... Probably when I am free like tomorrow...


Bye with Lots of Loves

Short...

Nothing much to say... Been doing homework all day long... Completed A math, essay and compre....


Anyone know how to do the summary??? It seems completely irrelevant to the topic....




Tomorrow going to be a long day... Doing homework again... Will post more tomorrow if have time....

Anw, good luck SH...

Bye with LOL (Lots of Love)

Exhausted...

One word for the first week of school - EXHAUSTING!!!!

Totally flat out... No more energy already... Training today again... Not intense but still tiring.... Tuesday training was the most tiring, while thursday was sort of slack cause I went at 530 when it was supposed to end at 600... All I did there was fifty pushups, and my shoulders are still sore from it.... No warm up means more prone to injuries and slower muscle recovery... Shld have done a warm up....

I so love english now.... The new teacher from St Nicks is so nice... Not looks ah, I mean the character.... Somehow, lessons seem interesting... Guess is the change of gender??? Even then, it still is more fun in English now cause she so nice, so kind, and so interesting.... English has been my favourite subject and she made me like it more.... I just love to write the crap love stories for narrative... Still remember Teacher ask me whether Er Didi and I liked the same girl cause we both wrote love stories.... Come to think of it, I wondered how come he thought like that....

Weekends are here... Yes, FINALLY!!! Been waiting for so long... My MUCH DESERVED REST..... But weekends means homework.... My list of homework is so long.....

English Compre and summary + Essay
Physics WS
E math ws + two test papers
A math WS
Geog mindmap + LDQ + WS
Chinese need study for some test....

My weekend is gone....TT... To make it worst, O level chinese results is out on MONDAY.... NO!!!!!!!!!! Nightmare!!! So much pressure, I cant sleep properly now!!! The more you try to avoid something, the more it will come back to haunt you.... So I am not avoiding it, just dreading it...

First week of school over means one week less to Os... My chem teacher has been MIA for the week... We are falling behind.... Then later will come rush us.... Zzzz..

Teachers, I need rest!!! Pulling me out of extra lessons for training instead wont make much a difference cause I will still be tired... I reach home so late everyday, at around 8, how to juggle homework, studying, and resting??? I am completely knocked out when the clock hits 10pm...

It's a miracle that I dun sleep in class already when I am so tired... But I guess this wont last long anw... Slowly but surely, I will be back to dozing off.... The first victim, will probably be chinese....

Speaking of chinese, I never talk in his lesson, he never find trouble with me liao... Last time every question also ask me, correct answer also scold... But, let bygones be bygones... Aren't I MAGNANIMOUS???

Nowadays, whenever SH comes, Mr Er and I will say "I want a girlfriend...." Super funny.... The he will be like, why are u becoming like me last time??? Since when your like this??? And so on and so for.... Of course I dun explain cause the same question will be asked everytime we say that and I HATE repeating myself....

But is certainly not for that 3 letter word... Watever else is up to your imagination.... I am so guai, so dun think too far... It's not really that far... And so far, I think only me and Er Didi noe why...

Slowly think.... I am going to rest.... Rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I so need it... Paradise to my 12-hour-is-a-day life... I want a MASSAGE!!!! I am aching everywhere....

Bye with LOL(Lots of loves)!!!!

Love My Life...

Ok, I know I should not be here... But.... I finished my revision liao... So I am getting my well deserved rest... This place gives me a sense of er, calmness??? Back to basics... Just wanted to share quotes... After all, I am a life man... Love life, do life and appreciate life... Never seen me say or post the three letter word ppl always post abt their life... U noe right??? Dunnoe can ask me, in my tagbox... But I am sure you know....

There is only one happiness in life -- to love and to be loved.

Apparently, I am experiencing only HALF of it... The be loved part.... Who wants to be the first part???? Guys maybe only, like close friend/brother like Er Didi, Wilson.... Girls, are errr, yes I guess, if u type the 'I agree' to my lack of time for the post below on my tagbox.... GUYS ARE WELCOME TOO..... LOL...

What am I doing??? Procrastinating cause got nothing to do... Back to topic...

Life is about falling – Living is about getting backup.

Totally agreed.... Hope you are inspired.... If you are not, tell me, I try HARDER....

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!

Bye!!! And LOL( LOTS OF LOVES!!!!)

Timeless....

Super tired.... And what a long road ahead... I look and cant helped but stare.... I am such a busy man... I dun think anyone will be as busy as me other that Er Didi... And it all starts next week.... All the way to the Os, starting from next week...

Here's the overview... It's all after school btw...

Monday - English extra lessons and may have others....

Tuesday - Higher chinese extra lessons + Training from 3-6...

Wednesday - Geography extra lessons + Science extra lessons.. (alternate week physics and chem)

Thursday - School ends at 345 due to triple science + Training from 3-6...

Friday - Math or A math extra lessons + Training from 4-6...

Saturday - Probability of Bio extra lessons...

Sunday - Homeworking....


That's my schedule from next week onwards... Still haven added in possible History extra lessons.... My week is packed, my life is as such.... Study and more of it... Furthermore, there are so many clashes in schedule, I think may have to talk to teachers to skip some... And counting fatigue, I think I will be half dead by the end of the month??? Average time I will go home everyday is at least 5...

No time for relationships though I will welcome it><.. Blogging will be less often?? I try, but no promises, as always....

Gosh, and this is not helped by the fact that O level chinese results that I am receiving is on Monday... Hope to do well and get one subject down...

First day of school was normal, nice to see everybody.... I know I was missed for my jokes, lame or cold or funny, it's still humour right??? Read this, Er Didi!!!!

New teachers for A math, English, Chemistry.... A math haven meet no comment... Chem teacher sort of missing, sick I think, so also no comments... Left English!!!!! Yay, english....

Finally a FEMALE TEACHER THAT IS NOT REALLY OLD!!!! WOOHOOOO!!!! Ok, end of excitement... Looks sort of er, ok??? Funny though, greeting us ' Good morning young guys'.... Me and Er Didi were like gd morning young lady??? Then she went on abt herself and gave us a paper to write 3 things that we want her to noe abt us...

Mine was
16 soon
Dun like english(actually i like but just for fun as always....)
Talk a lot but dun like talking....(I noe got no logic...)
Ended with the phrase at the top of my blog' life is simple, but....'

Total rubbish from me... But seriously, I prefer ppl asking me things instead of me saying things.... I dun like talking after all.... LOL...

Tomorrow, triple english.... That's 2hr15 min.... With a teacher that taught at St Nicks O.O, for 8 and a half years.... Seems like her lesson is fun, but you wont noe till you see the tigress show her claws right???

Ok, SOMEBODY suggested pictures on my blog... I say I try... Then today use my phone take 7 photos of himself... So, I want to post them, he say dun want leh... I will seek his consent though... Future SUPERSTAR.... I take photo with him next time can earn money when he is famous.... LOL....

Both of us desperate?? Should listen what we talk in class.... It's funny BUT ABSOLUTELY NOT SICK, if that's what you are thinking....(Eeee, naughty ah you boy/girl thinking I dunnoe wat..)...

I guess only people as busy as me, are those that are better in some thing I dunnoe how to say.... Cause we are busy in things that contribute to our future greatly, other than the Os...

SPECIAL, we are.... :):)

SH says to me why you and MR Er Didi all want girlfriend now??? Answer, we just want... No reason actually... Not DESPO HOR SH..... WE are too busy TO be DESPO.... Too TIRED TOO, for me....

Schedule tomorrow means I have a 10 percent chance of blogging.... Reach home at abt 8... Will be tired plus have homework.... Why I take till 10 subjects!?!??!?!?!?!

Sorry to whoever I have a relationship with this year if that happens if I have no time for you cause I have seriously no time.... EVIDENCE is above... Though I think whoever you are, you will be able to bear with it cause I cant stand GIRLS that are a******* and are d********.....

I'm off now....Homework..... And still need study for spa tomorrow..... Cause I pass everything back to the teachers... Great to have a girl now cause they are m********* and can help a lot in terms of work.....

Bye!! I am starting to procrastinate here... Using blog as an excuse.....

Realisation...

Life's been interesting.... It's been harsh... Ya, been through so much in such a short period of time... Criticism, and everything else... Got closer to people, and further from people... Maybe not further, but i added more details into their profiling... A secret profile that I keep at the back of my head... Only I know, and only I can change it...

Wonderful yet odd.... Sth so insignificant yet so powerful... Sth that was not in the way, shouldn't have been in the way, but got in the way.... Applause.... Testing times, but I hoped I pulled through...

Sticking strong to our beliefs makes people seem stubborn... Well, after, you cant force people to change their beliefs.... Especially when you want to change theirs, into yours.... That's irritating, selfish....

Maybe you dun like me as a person, then just move off... Dun disturb me, and I wont disturb you... You dislike me then go away... Dun pretend to come near me, capture a weak point and try to torture me... In the end, you get hurt... Cause you haven seen me yet... Just yet....

Advice??? I shan't ever give them anymore.... Pay me if you wan them, but no guarantees... Comments??? Only when you ask me to.... Talk to me about sth??? Sure, I will just listen.... No more talking... I have been too extra trying to help people... Yay, finally Nigel realises!!! That's what some of you may think... Exact same feelings... Yay, finally I realise, that all of words, will fall to deaf ears.... Finally I realise, maybe shutting up is better than speaking out...

Just finished washing my own shoes for tomorrow... Gosh, tiring, especially when it not been washed since i dunno when... Good exercise though.... TO let out frustrations by scrubbing...

School tomorrow... Im back, dun laugh to much... For I know you miss my jokes...

Reticence...

The first ever person I have met with reticence

has left my heart doing pirouettes in my chest

Love...

How a guy could wreck two girl's friendship....

How a girl could wreck two guy's friendship....

Such power the genders both have... And such power 'love' has...

Notice the inverted commas??? Yea, which of us know what's love??? Claim to like/love this person, go crazy over that person... When u realise you cant get him/her, u realise again that he/she ain't the one for you... So much for loving him/her...

So much for saying sticking to the very end... So much for saying that person is the one.... Head over heels at first, in the process, but not at the end... Love, you know what it is??? Cause I dun... Just yet.... Too young, to realise what it is....

Couples go out when they are my age, but how many get married in the end??? All the lovey dovey stuff that you do when you are together, it all comes to a nought... Nothing, just lessons learnt on how to go for more 'love'....

Holding hands, hugging and everything you can think of that you probably done before... The person u did it with, may well not be your future... Thinking about the person, wondering if he/she notices you, remembers you... When you realise it ain't that way, you stop.... Hesitate, then give up...

Damage done... You dun dare to 'love' anymore.... You dun want to be hurt... The pinch was all too painful... But hold on, thats not love that you have just experienced... Is that sense of betrayal, that you were never part of that person's thoughts... Never part of that person at all...

Finding the other one is not easy... Not randomly adding girls/guys u think are good looking on facebook... For all you noe, he /she is not what you think they are...(Think Edison Chen... I not saying he's gd looking though...)

Changing ppl that you like like you are jobhopping and landing at the start... Back to the person... yea, got to be the right one... Since I was lead there in the end... Sure about it??? Since u jumped at the start, what makes you think you wont jump again....

No answer means no hope??? Probably... Spam all you wan and get no reply... No hope??? Nahh... Think of the other person, how am I going to answer this guy/girl that likes me??? Maybe shy, maybe dun noe what to say, maybe busy or just maybe, you were wasting your time...

Relationships thrive on mystery... Get to noe a person too well, you grow sick of him/her... Mystery, means there is always something to talk about.... Something to keep that relationship going... Dun believe me??? You can try... Go find some random person that you would like, get to know him/her more and more... After a while, you feel it's getting boring... All u talk about is how your day is today, how your feeling... The good mornings and good nights get all too tiring... It's just like playing a game for a month, won't you get sick of it???

Love is complicated.... Starting a relationship is like driving on an expressway, it justs goes zoom zoom and zoom as we get to noe each other better... Then it gets off the expressway, and slows down like a traffic jam... Slow moving... Makes you frustrated, irritated and annoyed... Ending a relationship, is like a car accident... It happens so suddenly, both of you never expected it... It just came to you both... The impact is hard, it hurts the passengers... Both are in pain, both are hurting... But both of you know,this was inevitable... Driving a car, an accident is inevitable right???

Indulging in it is ok... But over indulging(if there is such a word), is not... Just like in the water, river, ocean... The deeper you go, the more pressure you feel... The more you like a person, the more painful it is to let go.... But letting go is needed... If you do not, you will drown in agony... Your own agony...

Not that I dun believe in love, but I do think it exists... But you cant live your life based on love... They say it's not love that keeps the married together, but is their children... Love plays a part, but not the type of love that we think, but love as a responsibility, love, for your own flesh and bone...

Having a partner is by no means easy... For the mutual understanding, accepting one another for who they are... Love blinds... It covers up all the flaws, and shines the light on the pluses... Finding a partner, is not so easy... The young couples that are still in secondary school, that's not love... If it is, those who want to get married, but cant, would have long ago...

Picking someone to follow you for the other half of your life, is not like picking your clothes you are going to wear for the day... People make it seem like a walk in the park... A stroll even... But that's not the case... It's like a sprint, a sprint to the end, with the speed of your 100m dash... There's no end... It ends only when your energy is all used up... It's tiring, the lactic acid will make you feel like quitting... You fall, you get a big cut... But you cant stop... That's love... Easy to start, difficult, tiring and painful to maintain...

The other half, gives you a part of your life that you can never have... Not the kissing, hugging or whatever more that the very young couples do... It gives so much more... More than you can think of...

Love... Are you ready for it???

Crazy...

Watched SBS, KBS and MBC EOY shows... All live...

I love SISTAR!!!! There performance like always so interesting to me....

In like less then a month, 16 liao... So fast.... What's the first thing I should do when I am sixteen??? Something that cannot be done if ur not 16, have what??? Suggestions???

So ending so fast... My 15th year on Earth.... Hope the 16th will be special.... It should be right??? SWEET 16... My lovely 16, coming so soon.... Can your give me a surprise each??? Like 16 surprises so that it will be symbolic.... Haha...

Once a joker, always a joker

If you are sad, find me... I will make you feel happy... 100 percent guarantee... Feel free, and trust me....

After all, I am the laughing___________.....(Feel in the blanks)